I hate to dance.
No this is not funny. Dancing is one of the worst things ever for me. I would rather go to the Dentist every day for a month, no, a year, than have to worry about dancing again. I am a total loser, I know. This is a real problem though. I'm entering High School now, and there will be dances, you know the kind where people expect you to dance. I cannnot have a repeat of the two dances I have only ever been to. I sat in a chair at a table to the side while everyone else was up dancing the night away. I envy my lucky friend that left before the dancing had really started, she didn't have to deal with this. My friends were trying to get me to go dance at first, but I just kept saying no. They finally got me up to the dance floor once, but I was just so scared and nervous that all I did was stand there for a while with my arms twisted.
Then I sat down.
And I did not get up again.
The music was hip-hop and rap. They danced everything all the way. With the ungh, and the ugh, and the sway together.
I listen to rock and allternative, by the way.
Which is music you can't "dance" to.
My "friend" was being really mean, saying I was "boring" and other things. I know I probably am boring, and you're probably thinking "Grow up and get a life", but it really did hurt. One of the worst parts was, this was my Eigth Grade Graduation Dance. This was one of the last impressions that my classmates had of me. They must think I'm a stupid, boring person that thinks she's too good for them, that's not true.
Stupid Me...
Yesterday was my friend JaC's Quinceanera. It was an awesome party for everyone else there, I'm sure.
But not for me.
The begining was fine. I went to her mass and JaC looked so pretty! Her dress was white and poofy with little flowers and purple rhinestones! [I loved it! :}]She had the usual picture presentation of her growing up and at the end there was a video of her and her friends at the Santa Monica Pier. It was really nice. Then her live Cuban Music Band started playing, switching off with the DJ every once in a while. Cuban mostly for the family, DJ mostly for the friends. And everyone was up and dancing.
Except me.
Of course.
My parents have even noticed that something is wrong. They first tried to get me to dance the Cuban music. JaC, her family, and friends were even up there.
But I did not go.
Then, *sigh* the DJ was playing all the rap, hip-hop music and everyone my age and more were dancing.
I just sat.
Some boys were there.
They were not too bad looking
They notied me and sent JaC and her sister to ask me to dance.
Twice
But, I did not go.
How retarded am I? And I am excpecting to get a boyfriend? Not anymore.
How will I deal with the High School dances? I don't know. I can't not go, I want to start fresh. I want real friends and I don't want my old image from SA to come back. What's a girl to do?
